Friday, December 31, 2010


I took this photo almost a year ago.  When I took it I had the intentions of posting about my Grandpa, thinking then, our time with him here on Earth would be precious.  I started the post a number of times, trying to capture all the memories and stories he told us.  I never could find the right format I wanted to lay the story out in.  Now, I just want the words down somewhere, somehow, no matter how jumbled or out of order they may be.  And so, that's the way the posts about Grandpa Snaz, Robert, Bob, Bobby will be, random thoughts, random everything.

Yesterday, December 30 my phone rang at 8:50 AM, I thought it was probably my friend Susan.  {We like to catch up in the morning if we can.}  Instead, it was my Dad, when he calls I mostly worry.  My Dad has been at Grandpa's side during this horrible health journey.  He sleeps at the hospital, drives him to his appointments, knows where he's been and what the road ahead might bring.  

"How's is going Dad?" 
"Not good, Grandpa is having a heart attack.  He's in the emergency room".
"Should I come?"
"I think so"
That's bad.  My Dad hasn't ever told me to come.  I also know that the only way he would tell me to come is if he thinks it could be the last time I would be able to come

I made it to my hometown by 2:15 PM, driving through rain and then snow with freezing rain for a base.  Praise God for my safe arrival and thanks to all who prayed. 

Grandpa is small in the hospital bed, curled up even smaller, sleeping finally.  Upon awaking he immediately knew who I was, despite all the morphine.  And for the rest of the day he was in and out of sleep or a heavily drugged state all of which was good at this point as the night prior and morning were filled with a pain like no other.

In talking with him this morning he said he has nurses with him at his assisted living residence all through the night prior.  Then finally at about 7:00 AM he said he couldn't handle it any longer and needed to go in.  They brought him via ambulance.  The doctor today confirmed he had a "big heart attack"  Most likely still is.

Here's the rundown:

  • He is in heart failure, kidney failure. 
  • Had a CT scan yesterday without contrast {contrast would wipe out his kidney function completely}.   
  • The CT scan showed fluid in his left (?) lung, enlarged heart with possible fluid surrounding it.
  • At this time he is unable to have the fluid drained and for many reasons most likely will not have it drained.
  • He was unable to void but a ultrasound showed urine in his bladder, therefor a catheter was put in this morning.
  • He was taken off morphine about 9:00 PM last night as his breathing became too shallow.
  • He was off the morphine last evening and remained without pain all evening.  This morning the pain in his right arm became too intense, therefor,
  • He was given nitroglycerin this morning and a dose of morphine rather than a drip, as with the drip his breathing became too shallow
  • This AM nitroglycerin tablets were not effective and is now on a nitro drip that has been upped three times in the last hour. 
  • He currently is not feeling pain and resting
  • He will have a blood transfusion as soon as the blood can be matched {I thought this was as simple as getting some from a cabinet.  He's been waiting for the labs to find a match for almost 2.5 hours.}  Note to self:  donate blood
  • More than likely he is still having a heart attack from yesterday that is being pain managed through meds
He is scared.  He is scared.  He is scared.

We are sad.

I spent the night with him here at the hospital and hope to be able to spend a few more days before returning home to my family.  I pray that I will be able to come back soon. 

Would you please keep him in your prayers?  Thank you and God Bless.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

The Year Of:

New Year's resolutions come and go.  I vow to exercise, eat less, wear a six pack, keep the house cleaner, stay more organized.  I re-vamp the list throughout the year {month, week, day).  It's all the same and in reality those things will probably always be daily struggles.  Quiet ones for 2011.  

After listening to a wonderful homily at Mass on Sunday, my year came to me.  When at home I asked my husband if he had any resolutions he wanted for our family.  His answer was a FUN year.  I agreed that a Year of  FUN, with less complaining {I confess, he was speaking to me} sounded great.  But this was not the year I was thinking of. 

This year has been a pivotal year for me.  A year of change without making it a year of change.  Change that seemed to take over, with welcome.  2011 won't be the named the year of change, although I do see more change coming.

The new year will be the Year of Prayer.  We will pray more as a family, I will pray more.  I will set times to pray.  I will pray for you, if you would like me to. 

We will also have the Year of Fun.  They say, "Go big or go home".  We'll just go big for 2011.   Why not?  We'll have the Year of Prayer and Fun!  We'll pray to have fun! :)

Karley Jane two days old in the hospital 4 AM

Consider joining in naming your year?

Friday, December 24, 2010

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Early Holiday

Last week I took the kids to a children's play at a theater near us.  The very cute play was Puss 'n Boots.  The kids did so well!  I was so pleased that I could take them to a play.    

For a number of scheduling reasons we decided to have Christmas with my two families the weekend before Christmas.  There were some really great things about having it early, one of which is that we will not be traveling late on Christmas Eve.  I am most grateful for this, late arrivals home makes for a hard Christmas Day for little ones.  I also like going to Mass on Christmas Eve and having a lazy present filled, pajama morning. 

The only downfall in having Christmas before Christmas was that there were still scheduling conflicts and each family only had a few hours to spend, all in one day rather than each enjoying a full day together.  My waistline, or lack thereof, was plump full all day long with all the delicious meals we had!  Yummy! 

Barbie was a hit this year for Karley.

  Henry loves Cars.

 Sophie was the last Grandchild to receive custom made Raggedy Ann from Gram. 

I met an old friend.  Do you remember her?

I did.

After two Christmas gatherings, my sister, Mom, niece and I all went to see this Angel in the local production of the Nutcracker.

Sunday morning we were honored to watch more angles and sweet sounds.

We are almost ready for the birth of our Savior!

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Multitude Monday Vol. 14 - Another Late Edition

I've gone rouge again this week.  More like I am a little tardy in linking to a Monday link with Ann.  I am just thankful to be able to sit a minute and gather, edit & post these three pictures.  A week full of His blessings you can see it all over their faces!  Or, certainly mine as I look at the photos.  We are just about ready for Christmas which is awesome because we have two of them this weekend!  I am only missing one, maybe two packages.  Hopefully the one that needs to come by Friday makes it before we are wheels up.  Here are numbers 321 - 337 of my 1000 gifts.

Warmth of the Home
Husband with a Plow - Just For Us This Year
Christmas Program

Family Coming to Christmas Program
Stranger's Help at Costco
Many Offering Help at Costco
Pink Candles
Purple Candles
Children Who Want More Bible Stories Read
Henry Knowing Which Bible is His
Henry Learning How to Follow Along on with His Own Book
Sophie's Never Ceasing Love for Books
Children Who Were Excellent During Immaculate Conception Mass
Grandpa Moving Back to Assisted Living
Having Adam Home More
Sisters Who Enjoy Hanging Out

holy experience

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

1000 Gifts - Late Edition

Even though this is a late post for linking to Ann's blog, I wanted to post anyway.  In a round about way you can see what's been going on in our family life and in a direct way you can see my thankfulness for what God has given me and my family.  There are things that I have forgotten and I hope to do a better job on a daily basis.  I will share with you later one way I have found to remember my daily thanks.  For today, this is what I can remember:

Recovery for all
One who never got sick
Christmas shopping with a great friend
Grandpa's release from hospital
Great meeting with spiritual director
Advent morning meditations
Walking baby
Pre-School and the crafts they make

Inquisitive little minds
Husband not plowing
Online shopping
Parenting by His Graces
Her "YES"
Dressing baby dolls in what was their baby clothes
Ring Around the Rosie

Little clowns while I am so seriously taking what I had hoped to be Christmas pictures

A tree in my living room {really.....there's a tree in my living room?}
Remembering other's grace in suffering

Mary said, "Behold, I am the handmaid of the Lord.  May it be done to me according to your word."
~Lk 1:38

holy experience

Numbers 303-320 of my 1000 Gifts

Friday, December 3, 2010

Seven Quick Takes - Vol. 13

It seems like a long time since I've posted and to make matters worse, I've taken few photos in the last few weeks.  Strep has been making it's way through our house and I was either busy getting sick, or running to the drug store three times in a week and a half.  Amazingly, Henry has yet to get sick?  It would seem strange to me if he doesn't since we've all experienced the high fever, chills, loss of appetite (I thought this part was nice!), low energy, sickness.  We'll see what the weekend brings.

Speaking of the friend and I are scheduled to go Christmas shopping tomorrow morning. We'll see if that happens.  We are due to get a lot of snow later today into tomorrow.  Her husband plows, (Adam took this year off, thank God!) and if the roads are bad and my husband is sick.......that may or may not happen.  I do know Amazon cart gets bigger and bigger! :)

This week I finished up my Bible Study on the Psalms.  What a great study that was!  If you ever get the chance to take a class by Jeff Cavins & Dr Tim Gray, I highly recommend it.  I was so inspired by the group I meet with every Tuesday night for ten weeks.  I love hearing about other people's faith walk.  The places people have been, the motherhood journeys, the classes people have taken, the books they have all read, and then t top it off.....this class was added to each person's list.  It was a great opportunity to be a part of.  I love the Psalms.

We were toying with getting a small, inside the house, dog again this week.  {I went through this over the summer} In the end, after looking and reading about Yorkshire Terriers, I just didn't have it in me to train a dog.  Especially looking at the throws of Old Man Winter.  Maybe in the Spring?

We got our Christmas Tree the Saturday after Thanksgiving {after I was sick and before Karley & Sophie}.  We usually go with the rest of the Fisher clan to a tree farm not far from our house but over the last few years the trees haven't been well pruned and it's been really hard to find a nice tree,yet the cost goes up and up.  This year we all decided to go to The Home Depot!  We got a really nice fraser fir for almost less that the tree farm.  I swear it's the best looking tree we've ever had!  Yeah The Home Depot!  After we got the tree we all went out for dinner....that was the best part!  Only thing, now I don't have a picture to use for our Christmas card???

Let's see, December 3rd, Christmas card hasn't been started, calendars haven't been started, shopping isn't started, and yet I feel peace.  I am not frantic like I have been in years past.  It will all get done.  The one thing that I really wanted to do was the Jesse tree and that hasn't been started either.  That I am fretting over a little.  I really wanted to do that for the kids.  Maybe a quick coloring and cutting session is in order this afternoon??  I have the tree all set up and ready to go......

I heard a joke on Relevant Radio last night that made me laugh.  I debated on sharing it and decided it can't be that bad if it was told by a priest, right?!  I'll do the best I can by memory:  

A married an elderly couple went for their yearly checkups. The Dr. checked the wife first and after the Dr. checked the husband he sent him to the waiting room and ask the wife to come in.  The Dr. told her that her husband had a rare condition and unless he had 3 square meals a day very low stress levels at home and needed good old fashioned lovin' would not live very long.  Returning to the waiting room the husband ask what the Dr. said.  She replied very sadly, "Your going to die".
Thanks Jennifer!

Have a blessed weekend everybody!