It's been a week since I left the woods colder and covered with more snow that my own home. When I left I was fearful it would be the last time I would see him. My family keeps me informed on his progress and I speak to him every day, but it's not the same as being able to drop in and say hello, or spend hours sitting while he drifts in and out of sleep. But I live three hours away with my own family, so we make due.
The beginning of the week was hard. It was hard for me to get back into my usual rhythm. The little things of the littles seems to wear on my patience. I knew it was me. My husband, saintly this man, was ever so sweet and helpful by being home early, helping with everything (as he does anyway) and just being the rock that he is.
I am ever so grateful for all of your prayers, thoughts and queries. To say it means a lot to me would be an understatement. My blog friends, IRL friends and family have been wonderful! Then there are the friends who once were IRL friends and now more facebook friends or blog friends. These friends I am referring to are my '89 Indian classmates. (Yes, were were the proud Indians dressed in orange & black) It's been years since I've seen most of them and yet they touch my heart all the time. They are The Kitchenista, The Prime Decorator, TJ, Warbird, Denise, Tina, The First BFF Jill, Shannon, Crystal, Kim, Deann, Melinda, and many others. We grew up in a close knit, small community that I will forever cherish!
My Grandpa has done remarkable well this week! He has progressed much more than I think his doctors thought he would, which isn't to say that he's out of the woods. He still remains in heart and kidney failure, which more than likely won't change unless a miracle is performed. He had kidney numbers that "horrified" my Dad. We don't really know what that numbers are anymore because they aren't being tracked on a daily basis. From what I have been told, when he heads towards complete kidney failure he will stop urinating, gain weight (water) and will be very sleepy. So far, he's been taking off the weight he gained while in the hospital, continues to urinate but some days is very sleepy. The sleepy part can be for any number of reasons, heart, PT, kidneys, or just plain tired. His heart is beating away and from what I understand there haven't been any signs of additional angina (?).
On a side note....hospice care papers have been set up. I understand and then I don't. What I don't is what medications will or will not be given for the two main medical situations. I will have to ask my Dad further. Can I just add, my Dad has been given strength beyond measure while dealing with his own aches and pains.....He truly walks with us.
Grandpa has elected to not take dialsys or have any additional heart surgeries. He isn't really a good candidate for anything beyond the pacemaker that was put in in December and dialsys would leave him sick one day and in all day treatment the next day. He's eighty-one and doesn't want to live that way.
I continue to pray for more peace and less pain.
I started this post a few weeks ago have more to say but wanted to post this entry because I wanted to make sure to thank those of you who prayed for my Grandpa.
Over the January 14, 15, 16 weekend my family and I went to my hometown to see everybody. Everybody would be my Aunt Denise, her daughter Lynnzy from California and her son Shaun from North Dakota, my sister & her kids, my Dad & Sally, my two brothers and their girlfriends. We all spent time together at the nursing home as well as the hotel my Aunt stayed at.
When we arrived at the nursing home I was so shocked, Grandpa was walking around with a walker. Thinking back to the time before when he was having a hard time just dangling his feet from the bed. Since then he has continue to get better and to our surprise the doctor signed papers stating he would be okay going back to his assisted living home. Grandpa didn't like being in the nursing home and was overjoyed to be able to go back to the assisted living home. He went back on Friday of last week. I am so thankful! I can't believe how far he has come in such a short time.
He is one strong, strong man. He has more than likely had several small heart attacks at home per what doctors have said. And he has had a few major heart attacks pulling through each time. I am amazed that he is doing so well. All glory to God. Really.
~ St John Bosco