Friday, March 11, 2011


When I see that he's ringing me I never know which way to answer the phone, "HI Dad!" or Hi, Dad?"  I'm a bit reserved for the next question, "How's it going?"  That's the big tell sign.  Today, was a "Well, I guess it's going".  Or something like that.  All I can remember is that he didn't say it was going good, okay, or fine.

I learn today that last night my Dad brought my Grandpa to the emergency room.  He's not able to keep any food down and this has been going on for about two weeks, sometimes not so bad but lately it's been happening more and more.  All this makes Grandpa either scared to eat or he simply doesn't have any desire.  This is not a good sign that his anti nasuea medication isn't working anymore.  I can't remember if he's going to get a new medication that is sometimes prescribed to cancer patients or he is going to go off that one to try another. 

I do remember that the lasix medication is going to be stopped.  This is the medication that helps what little kidney function is left.  He's home now and there will be another doctor visit tomorrow to discuss medications along with hospice care.

Wait.  Think.  Wonder.  It's hard to be three hours away from family.  When can I get there one?  Will we be able to pray together?  What should we pray about? 

My Grandpa is old now, but he still thinks young.  He still has things he wants to do.  He wants to be baker.  He wants to travel.  He wants to watch great grandchildren play.  He wants to drive.  He wants to feel the warm sun on his face.  He wants to laugh.  He wants to reminisce.  He wants to smile.  He wants to feel good.

He does not want to die.

I don't know what to say.  I keep saying, praying it will make a difference.  

Days after I first penned this post I have one thing figured out, I am going to sit with him in a few days. 

Thank you dear husband for working extra hard these last days of the week to be home an extra day next week.

The oldest & youngest

5 Sweet Comments:

Colleen said...

Awwww, he sounds like a sweet guy, I hope changing the medication sorts everything out. My husband and I have lost all our grandparents before we turned 30. It's great that you have had him in your life for this long. I hope one day he will be feeling more "ready" to move on, but I know that's easier said than done...

Tyler said...

I am so sorry to read this girl. Cancer is a very very ugly disease. I just lost my dad about 5 weeks ago to this terrible stuff and it just shatters my heart into a million pieces to think of somebody else having to feel that pain. I will be praying for him.. not sure of specifically how to pray but I will pray for God's peace for your family and him! (((HUGS)) to you!!!

Katie said...

I love that picture! It is so beautiful. What a blessing that your husband can be home so you can spend time with your grandfather. Praying for him and your whole family.

BTW: The Lenten wreath was expensive, but worth it. My kids love it and so do I!

The dB family said...

I love that photo! Just want you to know that you, your grandpa, and your family remain in my prayers. Praying also for safe travels for you.


Laura said...

I'm so sorry things have gotten worse the past couple weeks. He sounds like an amazing man and is so blessed to have such a wonderful family there for him. {hugs}


Please do not copy my work of photos or text. It is illegal and morally wrong. If you would like to use a photo or text I would be humbly grateful to have you link to my page or contact me. Thank you kindly.

Spread love everywhere you go: first of all in your own house. Give love to your children, to your wife or husband, to a next door neighbor... Let no one ever come to you without leaving better and happier. Be the living expression of God's kindness in your eyes, kindness in your smile, kindness in your warm greeting. - Blessed Mother Theresa


Related Posts with Thumbnails

  © Blogger template Shush by 2009

Back to TOP