Thursday, January 31, 2013

It's All Mental

Monday I was super excited, gung ho on getting an early appointment to see the orthopedic doctor.  I went against my desire and lack of patience for a couple of reasons.  Three kids who have been taking enjoyment in spinning each other up in a small office, while I try to listen to the doctor was the biggest reason I decided to wait until the appointment today.
 
Stubborn as I am, I pretended the appointment was Monday and waltzed around the house like I went to the appointment.  The next morning I was quickly deflated.  The pitting edema was in full force, so I took it easy all day, thinking maybe I'm not ready, what if I'm not ready.  What if...blah blah blah.
 
Then on Wednesday I decided that one afternoon early wouldn't make a difference, I wouldn't be as annoyingly anxious as I was early in the week because it was only one day earlier and at an office fifteen minutes closer.  No luck, seems as if the good doctor was double booked all day.  I would bet money the icy conditions which caused school to be two hours late provided a full appointment book for many doctors.
 
Finally, today, the big day.  
 
In the last few days {yes it took all this time} I realized that healing isn't training and I was finally ready to listen, to slow it down.

The handsome doctor, wearing a fashionable yet smart suit, came in after my x-rays instantly appeared on the computer screen and said, "Everything looks fabulous".  He said to ditch the crutches as soon as I was ready, then get into my regular shoe with a side splint when I was ready to move out of the boot.  I would be the judge of when that would be, continue physical therapy and come back in a month.  He said, "It's all mental now, just listen to your body".  I knew it was all mental since I was actually a little scared to walk this morning.  He also said I probably wouldn't be able to do a half marathon in June, "but go ahead and prove me wrong".  We'll see.
 
I'm on my way!
 
Woot!  Woot!
 
On the way home I started thinking about how long I would stay in the boot.  What time frame should I give myself?  I thought about the woman who was in the boot for three months with the same injury as me.  No way, I'm too mental to be doing that. 

We stopped along the lake to take a picture for Theme Thursday.  It's super cold here today.  High of -1F with wind chills of -25F.  Of course, this was taken from inside the car for two reasons {boot & temp}.


iso 200, 70mm, 1/800 f13
SOOC - crop & straightened

As soon as I got home....I ditched the crutches.  I called my husband, picked up the piles of clean clothes on our bedroom floor, picked up the kitchen counter tops, made lunch for the girls and made myself a delicious salad with a lot of things that required multiple trips to the refrigerator.  I walked around picking up things and brought them to their proper homes.
 
The mood lightened, mine and the girls.  It's been a long seven and a half weeks.  I'm looking forward to working out, painting bedrooms, getting out and enjoying life.  
 
It really is the little things.  I'm so excited to be walking.  I am also thankful for the company and prayer.

YYIIPPPEEE!

Monday, January 28, 2013

Daybook ~ January 28, 2013

Capturing a few of the memories of our weeks in....

...Moments of Gratitude

30.  A bright Sky, even in the subzero temperatures
31.  Hot Water beating down on a cold day
32.  Plans to make a summer Memory
33.  My Wrinkled, and washed laundry by the mister
34.  Smoothed feel of my children's faces
35.  Unfolded laundry to keep me busy
36.  In Christ, Mercy
37.  In Christ, Guidance
38.  In Christ, Joy
39.  The Blue of our Blessed Mother
40.  The departure of my Blue attitude
41.  The baby bundled in Blue we brought home six years ago.
42.  A glass of wine In The Kitchen w/ my parents & husband
43.  Delicious Sunday meal prepared In the Kitchen
44.  Lunch with school families prepared In the School Kitchen
45.  School Friends celebrating Catholic Schools Week
46.  Friends showing me patience, went I don't have any
47.  Friends sharing their graces

...Praying

Hands down, I'm praying for patience.

...Cooking

Crockpot Chicken, Mashed Pototoes & Corn
Chili
Chicken Wild Rice Soup
Cheeseburger Mac (I have yet to make this Jenny)
Bowtie Pasta
Beef Stroganoff

...Creating

We were going to do little acts of kindness during Advent.  I got them all ready and then we scrapped that because it was really hard to distribute them via my couch.

So, I found a few things on Pinterest we can do for Valentine's Day.  I am excited to be able to get to the store and make something.

Then I hope to get some Lenten crafts going. 

...Reading

Honestly, I haven't read a page in a book in a week.  My same books are on the list.
The Four Signs of a Dynamic Catholic ~ Matthew Kelly
CCC
Bible

...Liturgical Living

Firming up Lenten plans.  Need to put it to paper to capture the ideas and make them real.

...Looking Ahead

I'm looking forward to Thursday's doctor appointment, so much so that I was almost ready to take all three kids with me to a 4:00 appointment today.  Sounds simple enough but lately, it's not simple. at. all.  My better judgement (husband) said just wait.  So, I'm working on finishing tabbing my Bible, reading that book, and I should catch up on the Catechism with the flocknote group.  Just a few more days.

I'm also looking forward to my Holy Hour this week.  It's been eight weeks since I've been.  This will be the first place I get to go all. by. myself.

...Listening To

Children playing in the background
Drew on Relevant Radio in the foreground

...Captured

Our Old Yeller waiting to be fed during my Snapshot Sunday Hour 6-7 AM.  Shot in

f. 4.2, ISO 1600, 26mm, 1/3
I like to shoot in A mode. 
I have yet to take wb auto off. 
I have much to learn.
 
Joining Ann, Cari, Sarah & Suscipio.

Tina


Saturday, January 26, 2013

Moments of Grace

Flighty.  Yes, I've been flighty.  I started up a new blog three months ago and now I've moved it all back to my original home, right here.  This place, where I started rejoicing.  I didn't need to leave it, but only change it, and only just a bit.

I'm not an apologetic, I am wife and mother.  I need to rejoice in my God given vocation.  I enjoy this vocation capturing it in words and photos.  I also need to or I'll forget. 
 
This all started so I could make a book of our life.  This week after making a photo, I was quickly reminded how I still desire to make this blog of our family into a book.  A book which we will have when I can't remember the everyday.  My littlest is 3.5 now and I have a hard time even remembering when she was a baby, but it's here, it's all here.
 
I've missed capturing our life so I came back to where I was.

This was one of my moments of grace for the week I'm sharing at Suscipio.




Tina

Monday, January 14, 2013

Daybook ~ Volume 3

Moments of Gratitude:

Some moments are big while others small.  Yet, they are what I am halting time, rejoice in God for.  These are the gifts, the joydare which I am grateful for:

12. new domino friends to play with


13. little girl giggles held in my arms
14. sitting with my Mom
15. to have passed by 12 days not leaving my house and not going mad
16. sour words overheard, still seeing love shines
17. better than just right, a lunch with my Mom and girls in a restaurant
18. hearing these sweet words, "start physical therapy"
19. sharing the laughter of parenting with my husband


23. that I did a lot of things that I wanted to do before I got married & had kids. (1/3 things I'm grateful about me)
24. early morning snow falling from above
25. my husband beside me
26. startling grace of trusting in Him that my past was still in His plan
27. startling grace of confession
28. startling grace of forgiveness
29. the feeling of home in church

Praying:
Vocations
Discipline
Teaching
Healing

Cooking

This week is the last of the meals friends or family have given us.  God's timing is really good.  I think I'm about ready to handle some easy meals.  Tonight I have Kristen's chicken pasta bake.  Tomorrow we are going out for birthday dinner.  We'll probably have leftovers in Wednesday.  That will leave my first meal on Thursday, Tacos.  I can sit while making most of that.  I can honestly say, I've been very thankful for our small L-Shaped kitchen.  This design allows for me to back & forth with my left leg sans crutches and now I can balance with partial weight on my right foot.   Friday cheese pizza received, frozen from Papa Murphy's and salad.  MacGyver has Saturday and Sunday covered. 

I did manage a cake today for Henry's baptism anniversary. 

Wearing

I'm marking the year by with a photo of myself, funny thing is that I think I wore the same thing last year.  Linking up with Fine Linen and Purple.




Creating

I'm still working on photo books and a calendar.  I really have to get this going.  My couch time is coming to an end and I should have something to show for my computer time.  I did pick out a few ideas courtesy of pinterest for Valentine's.  We'll tackle that in a few weeks.

Reading

Nothing really new here, still reading the following:

The Four Signs of a Dynamic Catholic ~ Matthew Kelly

The Better Part ~ Fr John Bartunek

Catechism of the Catholic Church ~ a few days behind the flocknote group

Liturgical Living

Thinking ahead to what Lent will look like.  I will do the 40 bags in 40 days.  What size are these bags supposed to be?  Still need to think of things age appropriate for our kids (3, soon to be 5 and 6).
Ideas welcome.

Looking ahead

I think in trial, there comes a time when you are done.  I'm done with this broken leg, done with these four walls, done looking out these windows.  I've followed doctors orders keeping my leg elevated as much as possible.  Frankly, there hasn't been too much of a choice, I couldn't drive and keeping my leg down for any length of time hurt, being on crutches hurt.  But I'm done.  My swelling is low, even after the physical therapy exercises, I'm going to start driving.  I still need crutches but I can have my leg down for a longer period of time now.

Reminds me of when I'm sick there are the days when  you just can't do a thing and then soon enough your so sick of being sick you are going to make yourself better.  Makes sense right?

I'm looking ahead to tomorrow, I'm driving to a drive thru for a vanilla latte, not so hot.  I'm getting dressed, hair make-up.  I might even see if I can get a hair cut.  I'm going out to dinner with my family.  I'm celebrating my birthday doing something other than what I've been doing the last five weeks.

I'm also looking forward to a date with my wonderful husband, a glass of wine and delicious steak or perhaps a nice walleye fillet.

It's so nice to have some of my regular life back, I'm looking forward to it.  Rejoice.


Listening To

Little girls playing store and house, thinking back to my own days like these with my sister.  A humidifier pumping cool moist air into our non-stop furnace running house (today's high is 9, the low was 1 when I awoke).  Wiggles and giggles.
 
Grateful to have these gifts and this opportunity to Rejoice in the Lord,


Saturday, January 12, 2013

Sneak Peek Sunday ~ Week Three

Take a Sneak Peek on Saturday by looking at tomorrow's Gospel reading with me! This Sunday we will read from Luke chapter three verses 21-38.

You can share what strikes you most, what resonates with you, where God is leading you, what He's asking you of you in your own blog post and link here or in the comments section. I'd love to hear your thoughts!

What struck me most this week?
 
I 've always had a love for genealogy but today I was spoke to me most was that after Jesus was baptized he was in prayer.  It was while he was in prayer that the heavens opened.  I also thought about the fact that Jesus was baptized even though he really didn't have to be.  Obedient, once again.  I wonder, what was His prayer?  Gratitude?  And His display of trust, a lot trust.
 
What seems like such a simple message, yet so hard for me to accomplish in one day. 
 
Prayer.
 
Trust.
 
Obedience.
 
Gratitude.
 
Simple message but hard words to live, but I'll try, with the grace of God through my own baptism. 
 
The faith required for Baptism is not a perfect and mature faith, but a beginning that is called to develop.  ~ CCC 1253
 
Share you thoughts?

 
 
 


Friday, January 11, 2013

Quick Grace

1--

Moment of Grace.




2--
 
Yesterday was a good day.  The x-rays of my leg showed that the outside of the fracture has been healed.  I was a little alarmed when I saw the x-ray on the screen before the doctor came in, it still showed the spirals.  I jumped to conclusions, thinking it was bad, then the doctor told me that it would look like that for the next six months and what needed to heal for me to get moving, has.  He proceeded to write the orders for three weeks of physical therapy to work on range of motion and partial weight bearing.  Come back in three weeks and I should be out of the boot.  Praise God!  He also said it wouldn't be far fetched to be driving in two weeks.  Not totally healed but I could get around some.
 
3--
 
No doubt, I got home and called for physical therapy appointments right away.  Wednesday of next week was the first appointment.  Sigh.  A week without PT just after I'd been given the green light.  Not the direction I had hoped.  I scheduled five appointments.  Called MacGyver.  Called PT back to change a few times so MacGyver could drive me and they found an appointment for me for today!  Praise God!
 
4--
 
Day one PT.  Awesome.  He went over the basics, what we would be working on, main focus being reducing swelling/edema.  He then did some measurements both on the good foot and bad foot.  He then decided he could give me some weight strengthening exercises.  YIPPPEEE!  This is the fast track to walking.  And one more thing....he had this really cool machine called Game Ready.  If you don't want to click on this link to see scary man looking at you...it's a machine that is filled with ice that sends ice cold water through a boot that compresses over my ankle.  Loved it, even though I wanted a heated blanket the whole time.
 
5--
 
My Mom's visit with us was wonderful.  The kids loved having her as did MacGyver and I.  We had meals cooked and a lot of laundry washed, folded and all put away - in the same day!  She took me to two appointments and picked Big Girl up from school today.  We were blessed to take her out for Mexican lunch yesterday.  Yum!
 
6--
 
I toured Target yesterday in a wheel chair.  That was interesting.  I was by myself while my Mom & the girls parked the car.  A woman with a boy and a girl around the three/four/five age passed by me to get a cart.  The girl who was closer to the five age commented over and over how she wanted to watch the lady with the crutches get in the wheel chair.  I smiled at the mom, she smiled at me.  I continued to struggle, with a flamingo leg, trying to get the wheelchair apart while she buzzed on by as the girl kept saying how she wanted to watch me.
 
7--
 
Tomorrow I'll be hosting a link up on Sunday's Gospel, Sneak Peek Sunday.  I  hope you can take a peek at Sunday's Gospel reading and share your thoughts via your blog or the comments section.  I've enjoyed a head start on the readings, I hope you will too.

I'm linking with Jennifer's Quick Takes and Suscipio's Moments of Grace.

Monday, January 7, 2013

Woman's Almanac {CWA} ~ 3

Here's a peek at what's happening around  here.  The real stuff.

Moments of Gratitude
I have many things to be grateful for but haven't exactly been able to pen them all.  My journals are scattered and for the most part I require help getting things.  I ask much, so I tend to let things that aren't absolutely necessary wait, then the days go by.  I could use some organization. 
 
The short of my long list:

1. Homecooked meals ready to heat
2. My husband who takes care of broken legged me, our children, our home all the while being busy at work.
3. My husband going to work late to bring our kids plus one to school.
4. Thankful for catnaps after sleepless nights
5. Chocolate stocking treats.
6. Father and son learning video games together
7. Big Girl's Godparents over for a visit

Pondering
~ Marriage
~ Prayer

Cooking
I could just as well left this off as I haven't really cooked in a month, with one partial exception.  God is so good in our time of need with regards to food.  We've had wonderful friends bring meals that I can put in the oven to be ready when MacGyver comes home.  He then rallies the troops to set the table and I "crunch" down for dinner.  I manage easy easy breakfast and lunch.  Yesterday, I chopped veggies and we threw together chicken noodle soup.  Felt good to make something or at least have a part in making it.  It's a start.

Wearing
This category is the same as above.  The real truth is that I quite often shower later in the day and then put clean pajamas back on for the remainder of the day.  Or I wear my favorite velour warm up type outfit.  My sad reality is that during the week after getting kids out the door for school, I need to put my leg up and I'm exhausted (my running days such a distant memory).  Then it's time for lunch, rest, then shower.  I rarely see anybody besides the four other people that live here and we all love pajamas!

Creating

I'm far behind but I really do hope to get my photos together to make books for each child by the time of Big Girl's birthday in February.  I need to get focused in order to get this done because come leg recovery, I doubt computer time will be in abundance.

Reading
 


 
Catechism of the Catholic Church with Flocknote

Litugical Living
Starting to think about what Lent will look like.  Thinking about 40 bags in 40 days (google if you need to, many people have done this in the past).  On one had I wonder what is left after our huge purge late summer, on the other, I look around and see way too much.    Room by room, each day.  I'm in, no question now.  I'll ponder on other ideas.

Looking Ahead
My Mom is coming to stay with us on Wednesday until Friday.  I'm so thankful.  She'll catch us up, cook, run errands in addition to running kids and me.  On Thursday I go to the doctor for my four week check up.  I'm pretty sure the bone has now healed.  It just feels different, more like it doesn't feel.  I think since I don't feel where it was broken, it's not?  The last visit the doctor indicated if everything looks good, I'll start putting some weight, while on crutches, to my leg.

For Fun
MacGyver and I have joined the Downton Abbey craze.  We were getting season one via Netflix DVD to the home.  Then we reazlied we can stream it on his iPad free via amazon.  Woot Woot!  We don't even mind watching it on the small screen as it's a way better picture than the old tube tv, not to mention instant, no waiting for the mail.  Last night was the premiere of season three, I wonder if we can catch up?
 
Prayer
My prayers are great in number, here are a few:
My sponsored boy Ryan and his family in the Philippines
Healing for a friend after an emergency emergency c-section
Healing for mothers who are unable to run their families due to illness, recovery, etc.
For marriages on the brink to come to fullness in God's will (not a personal prayer).
 

Captured
From last summer, I have yet to get outside for some current winter pictures.  This is from a collection I discovered on an old sd card, hiding in my camera bag. 


North Shore, Minnesota

Joining the Suscipio and Ann.



Saturday, January 5, 2013

Sneak Peek Saturday ~ Week 2

Take a Sneak Peek on Saturday by looking at tomorrow's Gospel reading with me!  This Sunday we will read Chapter Two, verses 1-12 from St Matthew's account of the Gospel.

You can share what strikes you most, what resonates with you, where God is leading you, what He's asking you  of you in your own blog post and link here or in the comments section.  I'd love to hear your thoughts!

What struck me most this week?

I feel as if I am one of the wise men.  I can live in this world and move closer and closer to Jesus, bringing him my gifts or I can live in the world that embraces Herod.  Which do I choose?



Some 2000 thousand years have passed and while I try to pick up my cross and follow our Savior come what may, still many times I do not.  King Herod was so threatened by the arrival of Jesus and feared he would take second best, he let his pride got the best of him.  Pride. 

Yes, I have the Holy Spirit in my inner dwelling but do I also have a little of Herod?  Do I carry pride that I choose not to follow the will of God but my own will.  My inner Herod?

Lucky for me, and you (if you are at all like me) we have a patient God who patiently waits for me to discover Him.  He uses Scriptures, the Saints, His Holy Church, Sacraments, apostlic succession, faithful clery & religious, my husband, children, family, friends, nature's beauty.  He's so patient and merciful. 

It can be so easy to find Him, I just have to be like the Magi and walk by faith.  My gift can be to follow His will.  I can ask for His help to open my eyes so I can see all His gifts and give Him praise and thanks.  Respond to love, with love. 



Share you thoughts?









Friday, January 4, 2013

Moments of Grace

I see four walls staring at me, the same trees, an occasional car drive by, the bus in the morning and in the afternoon and whatever I pull up on my screen, for the better part of each day, most days.  The faces of my children are gazed upon moving pictures and my dutiful husband is heard moving about doing the tasks of mine and his.

Even in all of this boredom of a leg up, I do see Moments of Grace.  They aren't huge epiphanies, just moments.

The help of my three, almost five and six year olds moving my things from room to room, trailing hobbling me.



I see Your grace.

My littles getting a chair for me so I can pull together breakfast or lunch. 

My sweet family and friends bringing dinner for us so I can simply put it in the oven and have it ready for when My Love gets home.

Him, cleaning it all up every night, followed by baths.

The Christsmas shopping.  Grace, oh the grace my husband has shopping with three kids, days before Christmas, without complaining. 

Our family leader, working hard during busy times at work, but making sure he comes home for dinner and to take over my couch parenting.



I see Your Grace.

And now, My Love is sick, and he keeps on keeping on. 

My Mom, My Dad driving three hours to come and help.  My Mom coming again next week.

The many people who have taken over driving our children to and from school and pop up doctor apointments.

Driving me to doctor appointments.

Prayers, cards, encouragement.

Friends bringing broken leg things to make my life easier.

Grace shown by those that picked up our slack on Christmas meals, because frankly, he was done and needed a break.

I see the Holy Spirit coursing through each of those people who have come in our time of need. 

I see Grace even in contained in four walls.  I know Grace goes on among those trees.  Grace happens in an occasional car driving by.  I'm sure there plenty of Grace happens on the bus.  I know Grace is living in the lives of places I visit through my screen.

The Holy Spirit is in my children no matter what they are doing.  And my husband is a never ending source of Grace and strength for us.

Even though I do little these days, He does much in my life.

And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.  ~ Phil 4:19 RSV-CE
 
Please feel free to share your Moments of Grace with a beautiful group of Ladies at Suscipio.




*My photos are very random, July 2012.  I just found them and they are inspiring to see in the middle of cold winter.



Thursday, January 3, 2013

The Year Of

It's The Year of Faith for many of us.  Others will have their own The Year Of and some will have both. 
 
I've seen The Year of Modesty, The Year of Respite, and The Year of the Rosary will be a wonderful year as well.  I didn't really have to think about what my year will be.  It's been in the making for months.  It's been calling me.
 
When I look back at the last few years the times I've enjoyed the most are when gratitude has been marked or captured.  When I look at my gratitude I feel glad about my life, my blessings, my gifts, I thank God.  When I reflect on my gratitude I give thanks to Our Lord, complain less, focus on me less.
 
Gratitude is going to help me with my word of the year.  For Christmas my beautiful sister-in-law gave me a devotional to help me keep track of my gifts.  I've always like this community of gift markers so I've decided to add the 1000 Gifts app to my phone to capture and track my gifts, to help me with my word.

And here it is......


Rejoice!

re·joice

verb \ri-ˈjis\
re·joicedre·joic·ing
 

Definition of REJOICE

transitive verb
: to give joy to : gladden
intransitive verb
: to feel joy or great delight
re·joic·ernoun
re·joic·ing·ly \-ˈji-siŋ-lē\adverb
rejoice in

I want to be rejoicing in the Lord, my family, my friends, my life, my blessings, all my gifts from God.

4 Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! 5 Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.  ~ Philippians 4:4-9 (NIV)

Rejoice!  Rejoice in what is right here right now, rather than wishing time away to something else, another time.  The time is here, right in front of me, this time to rejoice!   





Do you have a word for your year?  I'd love to hear it.

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

2012 in 12 Photos

Twelve photos that capture some of our life in 2012.  Linking up with  Dwija.